priming cycle, advance!

Mr. Hope and I headed up to Posh Clinic yesterday, him for a sperm analysis and me for blood work and another transvag scan. Lining was 8.6, and there were three waning follicles all tracking around the same size (8, 7, 7). And yes, there was evidence of ovulation, confirmed by blood work. 

Due to the timing of Mr. Hope's sperm analysis, and his need to abstain for a certain number of days prior, plus the approximate timing of my ovulation, there's about a 0.0% chance of us having some kind of miracle natural conception. Meaning: no pressure, no symptom-spotting, no magical "what if" scenarios playing in my head. So this is good.

Also good: I've started to drop my pre-O water weight. It's so gratifying to see the scale start to go down, especially after how hard I've been working. 

Of course, now that ovulation has been confirmed, I start my estrogen supps tomorrow, to help prime for the fresh IVF. Twice a day until I get my period. Me on estrogen = near-instantaneous weight gain. So I think I better enjoy my small-but-significant weight loss today, because that's likely to stop.

I need to keep reminding myself that although weight loss would be nice, really I'm doing all of this in hopes of a successful cycle/implantation. I'm 38 years old and I have never seen a real positive pregnancy test, just a few faint positives that were the result of the trigger shot not leaving my system as quickly as I thought it would. 

On a completely different note: allow me to pat myself on the back for a sec. Yesterday was Halloween and I didn't have a single piece of candy. Not even a single BITE of a single piece of candy, though Mr. Hope and his offspring kept offering them to me even after I reiterated that I was off the sugar.

Apparently, I have willpower of steel.