Saturday, November 1, 2014

priming cycle, advance!

Mr. Hope and I headed up to Posh Clinic yesterday, him for a sperm analysis and me for blood work and another transvag scan. Lining was 8.6, and there were three waning follicles all tracking around the same size (8, 7, 7). And yes, there was evidence of ovulation, confirmed by blood work. 

Due to the timing of Mr. Hope's sperm analysis, and his need to abstain for a certain number of days prior, plus the approximate timing of my ovulation, there's about a 0.0% chance of us having some kind of miracle natural conception. Meaning: no pressure, no symptom-spotting, no magical "what if" scenarios playing in my head. So this is good.

Also good: I've started to drop my pre-O water weight. It's so gratifying to see the scale start to go down, especially after how hard I've been working. 

Of course, now that ovulation has been confirmed, I start my estrogen supps tomorrow, to help prime for the fresh IVF. Twice a day until I get my period. Me on estrogen = near-instantaneous weight gain. So I think I better enjoy my small-but-significant weight loss today, because that's likely to stop.

I need to keep reminding myself that although weight loss would be nice, really I'm doing all of this in hopes of a successful cycle/implantation. I'm 38 years old and I have never seen a real positive pregnancy test, just a few faint positives that were the result of the trigger shot not leaving my system as quickly as I thought it would. 

On a completely different note: allow me to pat myself on the back for a sec. Yesterday was Halloween and I didn't have a single piece of candy. Not even a single BITE of a single piece of candy, though Mr. Hope and his offspring kept offering them to me even after I reiterated that I was off the sugar.

Apparently, I have willpower of steel.


  1. That's crazy good willpower! I hope your cycle progresses as it should and your dreams will be fulfilled soon!

    1. Thank you, Sara! Your support means so much - really. I am cheering you on as well!

  2. Hello from LFCA!! Wishing you luck this cycle :)

  3. Here from LFCA and just wanted to wish you the best of luck! I absolutely love your writing style!
    After 5 years of infertility sadness we found our light in embryo adoption.
    And what a great experience we have had! I got pregnant when I was 40 with our first one and now I am turning 45 in couple of months and we have the other one on the way (next week).
    I have always struggled with the weight and tried to do all this crazy stuff to increase the fertility!
    I wish you the best of luck and one day (soon) you will know why your wait was so long!!!!!

    1. Aww, thank you so much! I am hoping for a successful cycle. I am ready to be a mother!