...that is the question.
Despite all of my negative nelly-ness, Things Are Happening. I recognize the symptoms. The constant, dull, AF-type cramps in my lower back. The pressure over my groin area. Occasional twinges. Ridiculous thirst, no matter how much water I drink. The ginormous under-the-skin chin zit that appeared in what seemed like an instant.
This is what I told Mr. Hope: "I can't tell you if it's viable, but I'm pretty sure I'm pregnant."
There. I said it. The thing I wasn't planning on saying for fear that I would jinx things or end up feeling foolish if I was wrong. The mild cramping I felt the day of transfer? Could've been from the catheter. The implantation pinches I felt 1dp5dt? Could've been anything, really, including wishful thinking.
But this? Today? It's been constant from the time I woke up. Lots of pressure, lots of cramping. A weird headache. Exhaustion. Heartburn. Some of that could be from the progesterone. Not all of it.
A woman in my FB group POAS today and got a faint positive at 4dp5dt. I was thinking I would wait until Sunday. After all, I didn't get my BFP last cycle until 6dp5dt, and the embies we transferred this time were more compacted than those.
But now I don't know. Now I kind of want to POAS tomorrow.
I already bought a three pack of FRER. They arrived earlier this week. I ordered a slightly cheaper three pack that takes longer to ship at the same time, so they should be coming soon. So I have 6 FRER and two digis (one FR, one CB) at the ready.
To pee or not to be?
I can't decide.