Tuesday, March 24, 2015

and the third beta is...

...1,561.

You guys, I can't stop shaking. And smiling.

Mr. Hope's reaction? "OMG TWINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

According to Betabase, my hCG level is somewhat high for a singleton and right in line for a twin pregnancy. My E2 and P4 are slightly lower than last time, just by a smidge, but are still in a good range.

On the ride to Posh Clinic, I was listening to Taylor Swift (don't judge). I had to fast-forward through the song "Out of the Woods," because the chorus goes, "Are we out of the woods yet? Are we out of the woods yet? Are we out of the woods." I listened to it a lot during my last pregnancy, just because I've been listening to Taylor Swift practically nonstop this winter (again, don't judge), but it felt really applicable to our beta hell.

So I hit fast-forward and landed on the song "Stay, Stay, Stay," which is this adorable country-flavored little ditty that Mr. Hope and I both love (remember what I said about not judging?) . I was singing along with it, smiling, but when I got to the chorus - "And I said, 'Stay, stay, stay. I've been lovin' you for quite some time, time, time...'" I started crying. All I could think was, "Please, baby, stay. Please stay."

(Keep in mind that I am hormonal right now. Pregnant, remember?)

Blood work and ultrasound are scheduled for next Tuesday. I'm sure I will have anxiety freak-outs any minute now, but right this second?

Shaking. Smiling. And feeling so incredibly grateful.

24 comments:

  1. !!!!!! That is the most WONDERFUL news! I'll be thinking about you all week and praying that your ultrasound goes well next week. Maybe we'll see two little ones!!!!

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    1. Thank you! We'd be happy either way. :)

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  2. Way to knock that Beta outta the park!! Holy cow!! Many many congrats!! So very happy for you, truly!!

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    1. Thank you so much, Charlotte! Your support has meant so much.

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  3. :) You can listen to whatever makes you happy. No judgement here! I'm eager for Tuesday but know it's a day at a time right now. So I'm happy for you today!!!

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    1. Heh. I just sometimes feel silly as an almost *cough cough* 40-year-old woman jamming out to T Swift, but you know. I am happy too. Hoping this one sticks!

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  4. That is absolutely wonderful.
    Listen to whatever you want.

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  5. Oh I'm so happy for you!! Can't wait to hear about the ultrasound!

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    1. Thank you! Six days left to go. I'm not freaking out yet. This is a good thing, I think.

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  6. I love a bit of Taylor Swift - although haven't been listening to much music lately. Looking forward to hearing about your ultrasound and how many babies there are!

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    1. Yay, a fellow fan! There's just something joyful about most of her music, even the breakup stuff. I've needed that this winter.

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  7. Awesome beta! Congratulations. Look forward to hearing more.

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  8. Amazing beta!!!!! Next step, ultrasound and a head count!!! I don't really know any Taylor Swift songs, and I have many an embarrassing guilty pleasure song/artist, so no judging here!! Very happy for you!

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    1. Oh, Tiggy. I will have to introduce you. Do you have Apple Radio? Or Pandora? You cannot miss out on the wondrousness that is T. Swift.

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  9. Wow! Amazing number! Can't wait for the u/s!!!
    So happy for you!

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    1. THANKS! You've been such a wonderful source of support. I appreciate it so much!

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  10. Woohoo! Congrats on the rising beta numbers! I've heard of high numbers being twins and singletons...it's hard to know. In any case, I'm wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy!
    No judging on music or crying while listening to music here. We all have our own likes and dislikes. And there have been times a song will come on the radio and I'll start crying for no reason what-so-ever. LOL (Usually the lyrics will remind me of my mom.)
    Here from ICLW.

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    1. There are songs that remind me of my mom, too, and they typically make me cry. I can't listen to "Seasons of Love" now without bawling.

      RE: the high beta - I have a friend who transferred one blast and had these crazy-high betas - I was SURE it had split and she was carrying identical twins, but no. Just a really high beta singleton. So I know it can go either way. I'd be happy either way. Just hoping for at least ONE healthy little jellybean.

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  11. WOW! Congrats! That is an awesome beta!

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  12. Wonderful numbers, I bet you're just dying for Tuesday to come around already!

    My son was consistently higher than the twins we lost - beta numbers are so hard to use as an indicator of what's going on other than making sure it's all doubling correctly :) No matter what you end up with you'll be thrilled with it as long as it's healthy.

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    1. Yeah, I know it could go either way. Like you said, just hoping for healthy, no matter how many we get!

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